Super doctor (x) to the rescue

Talking about complications with my chemotherapy treatment, the las one i have was when the doctors find an infection in my blod (already taking care of ) but now a 5ml blod cloaght was found in an artery near my heart. So a crew of 4 doctors rush in to my room after they studied the resoults of my last cascan and X ray radiography, telling me the inminent danger i was in. "If the blod cloaght travels to your lungs or your heart youl be toast" if you know what i mean.

So after that they call a scort to swich me to the (ymci) room' Intensive care room' to watch me closely. Than they all left the room with an exeption of this really young doctor he looks to me like 28 or early 30's .
And we wait for the scort to take me to te Intensive care room, and we wait..15,20,30 minutes and my doctor say " This is crazy, do this people undertand that this is an emergency?" So he just star umpluging all the instruments on me and paking my stuff to take me to such a room Hi'm self. And he did.. everybody along the way was telling hem " you are not suppose to to that, we have people to get pay to do this" and he just reply "So where are they when you need one? we being wainting for them for an hour"

So stumbleling and hiting all over the wals he manege to take me in to my room. he promptly call the nuerses to plug me back in to my medicine and all the necesary instruments. He look at me and say.."what a ride ah?" and told hem "Not bad but you gonna need a drivers license" (we bouth laught).
And he finalise with this words " What happend to you as never hapended before, so I gonna write an article about you in the most important medical journal magassine that travels around the world and this matter will be saving lifes in the future."

God works in a misterius way.(Chemoteraphy problems)

I can't even remember howmany days as already pass cince I came to this hospita to take my 2 weeks chemoterapy. unfurtunatly something whent wrong, the doctors discover an infection in my chest medi port (divice to inject medicaments inplanted inside my chest, under the skin). and for this reason the medic staff decide to remove it to fight the infection with antibiotics. Well to make the history short they did remove it just to find out that such instrument couse a blog cloaght 5 cm large. They tolme "This as never happened before it is the first time that we are seeing this) So they have to disolve the blod cloaght with blod thinners. The cloaght was to close to my heart that a operation coul be to risky, so the best way to take care of it will be atacking it with blod tiners. the litle problem with this is that the blod cloght can brake lose and travel to my heart or my lungs, so they must watch my develoments closely and they transfer me to the Intensive care room. So far I still dealing with antibiotics and blod tinners, the infectios is gone but the blod cloght I must deal with it for several weeks.
One young doctor told me " This has never happened before so i will made an article in a medical journal magassine, you gonna made me famous" Just great! it never happened before but it happen to me. But.. I never being to pesimist in my life even in this particular case i must say that, By this to happen it means that it could hapen again. so to avoid that it is good to know that doctors are getting prepared to deal with this kind of situation, maybe they will do things diferent from now on, and the problem I have could be saving lifes around the world. God works in a misterius way.

All by my lonesome

And when i was needing support from my love ones. in the very day when i was getting a procedure,everyone let me down. for a wile I'm being feeling as an object in my families life's. and at some point I understand, the one dieing is me, every one else just keep going with their life's. They just can't get any economical help from me ..or any other help. so I'm not of their interest any more. In moments like this I taking refugee in God, and thanks to hem things are looking better by the day, looks like I going to get out of this one OK. That I'm praying so hard.

My heart is being from one disappointment to another whit the people that surround me. my heart it is badly hurting inside that some times is not able to feel any more, and at some point I thought that it could be more easy to die than to fight this disease. so many times I pray to God to let me die because the sorrow and the pain was so great to endure and I couldn't take no more. And I call my disease gran mother and my grand father to come for me but I have no answer. Now. I still two months more to go with my treatment, and all what i want is strength from my lord Jesus Christ, Some how. I know that he hasn't forget me. so God don't leave me my lord and easy up my suffering.

Nada personal?

Hace mucho cuando pensaba en los hospitales, solia creer que el trato de doctor a paciente era superficial y frio, hasta cierto punto despota.
Desgraciadamente estoy internado en un hospital y me he dado cuenta que estava sumamente.equibocado al respecto, ya que ahora me pude dar cuenta que al tratarnos diariamente con conversaciones doctor paciente o enfermera paciente simplemente se inbolucran sentimentalmente con el dolor ajeno. haciendose varias de las veces buenos amigos que no solo administran medicamentos, si no que tambien animos, consejos, y palabras de alivio. algunas veces paran en mi habitacion solo para darte compania y platicar contigo. tal es el caso de un doctor muy joven que fue mas alla de su profecion por mi. su nombre....Dr. Williams

Esta fue la nota que me dejo y fue la ultima vez que lo vi ya que fui trasladado a otro hospital...

Dear Miguel.
you were sleeping when i come back and i didn't want to wake you .
went to wish you good ...... + the best of luck. Stay positive + strong!
Sincerely...Dr Williams

Ps: I'll be back to visit
P.P.S: Be te king of the jungle!

Esto ultimo lo dijo por una historia muy amena que le conte cuando yo era un adolecente. fue la historia de un changuito que me atrevere a postear en mi siguiente blog . si la llegan a leer les sacar una buena risotada. asi que sintonisen el mismo canal a la misma hora.

My Space (Mi espacio)

En noches claras y con hermosos luceros colgando de la nada, es cuando me da cierta inspiracion y me gustaria poder escribir un poema de neruda o una cancion romantica de los Bee-Gees en ese espacio infinito. Me gustaria entablar una conversacion con Cristo, ahunque es muy dificil empesar una charla con alguien que save de atemano todas tus preguntas, miedos. y conjeturas. asi que solo me quedo atonito ante su grandesa que el nos ofrece dia a dia.
La luna hace su aparicion para saludarme y recordarme todas las handanzas en la que ella ha sido mi complice y compania. y ahi solo me quedo contemplando el hermoso espacio infinito sintiendome tan insignificante y conectado a el a la vez..

Charles Darwing (Y su teoria)

Charles Darwing, Que gran hombre diria yo.
Hoy se conmemora su natalicicio de esta celebridad. Segun el y su teoria evolutiva todos nosotros decendemos del Mono. Pero... si es asi, Como es posible que el mono ahun en nuestros dias siga pariendo monitos y el hombre no haya evolucionado en alguien mejor?
El mono sigue siendo mono y el hombre segun yo, va en retroceso evolutivo.
Y una vez mas nuestra odisea humana buelve al punto de partida por la insonerable pregunta que el hombre se ha hecho desde hace miles de años.
Quienes somos, de donde venimos?
Y la teoria de Darwin se convierte solamenmte en eso... Una simple TEORIA.

Leuquimia y sintomas

Devido a que tengo un problema de salud muy delicado todas las cosas que me gustava hacer o me divertian, simplemente an pasado a tercer plano tal es el caso de este blog que por cierto lo tengo muy avandonado y no es para menos ya que la primera vez que me interne en este hospital lo hice por 40 dias y ahora cuando regreso por tratamiento quimioterapico tengo que hacerlo por almenos dos semanas. El tratamiento es muy duro y peligroso devido a las infecciones que se pueden sufrir por tal medicamento.

Al lidiar con una enfermedad tan delicada me di cuenta que no solo el enfermo sufre su pesar, si no que toda la familia se ve profundamente afectada animicamente, sicologicamente, espiritualmente y ovbiamente economicamente. Y deshafortunadamente eso se suma al pesar del afectado principal, creo yo que eso lo hace mas vulnerable. Tambien me di cuenta de los familiares mas preocupados por mi y mas afectados por este problema. uno de ellos escribio este poema espero no se moleste el que yo lo postee ahora. Es facil de adivinar de quien es, aqui lo dejo.

He navegado sin rumbo, solo y sin saberlo;
He marchitado el tiempo con mis desplantes y sonidos
He padecido el vertigo de la muerte en cada lagrima de mis noches...pero
Hoy me he dado cuenta que contigo la soledad es felicidad eterna.

He sacrificado el amor para renegar de su existencia
He maldecido a mi suerte, siempre que me ha traicionado
pero con tu presencia hermano mio
hasta el mismo infierno es dulzura y mis noches sabor a melancolia.